I should of told her... I should of told her... fuck! I had a perfect opening there... I could of just SAID it... just been "I don't want to because..." it would be blunt but I mean.. fuck this is killing me. I meanfsahjfsklajfskla it hurts so much too...
I need help..

I acutally really really hope that we don't do anything hurtful today in gym, like really... that would kill me I think.
I also hope no one hurts me or like bumps into me there or something, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore