I wish I could get it out of my head. I wish that summer would end, not because I hate being bored, but because I hate the memories it holds. I wish my mind would stop flashing back to the times we've had.
I am comfortable with our friendship right now, really I am, I wouldn't change it for the world and I'm trying to stop being paranoid just so I don't ruin anything. I know it's better to have you here, have you with me, and I feel so selfish for wanting more when I already have so much. I have a great friendship with her and she's here with me but I still want us to be together. I feel so slefish for wanting more, I shouldn't want more.
Maybe this summer isn't better than last summer, but it isn't worse either, I don't know what it is. If anything I would just like the flash backs to stop, the reminder of how things use to be... of what has happen.. the good and the bad.

I'm sorry, so very sorry.